Birthdays make us older and are often associated with happy thoughts. Though as I grow older, I am liking them less and less along with the gray hairs that keep sprouting up.
Wedding anniversaries make us giddy or at least they do me. They remind me of that special day so long ago that my husband and I became one.
Holidays always bring their own joy and celebrations. But aren't they just days on the calendar that has been set aside for some reason or another?
Some days envoke other feelings like sadness, woe, and grief. That is today for me. Just a day on the calendar, but a date absorbed by sad memories and grief. Today is the 2 year anniversary of the day my mom passed from this life to the next. I knew this day was coming, but it wasn't until I was sitting at preschool writing a check this morning that it hit me today is the day. All of a sudden tears sprang to my eyes and I was struck by an overwhelming feeling of sadness. I miss my mom every day. There are so many moments of the day when I think of wanting to share something with her, talk to her, or ask her advice. But she isn't here anymore to answer those calls. Even though I do miss her every day, I do not cry about it everyday, so it makes me wonder what it is about anniversaries that brings everything to the surface and make it feel so fresh.
My mom, my hero.
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I know what you mean and I'm so sorry you have had to pass this anniversary. It doesn't get easier, unfortunately. I think it's just like a birthday--we know we are getting older all year round but it isn't until the actual day that we feel the weight of it. Likewise, though we miss our loved ones on a daily basis and yearn to have them with us throughout the year, the actual anniversary of something like this brings it more to our awareness. I'm glad you aren't forgetting your mom and that you took the time to recognize her today.
How many Michelle's are there?
Whenever I am cooking, whatever it happens to be, I still get this urge to pick up the phone and call Mom to tell her what I am making.
I used to pretend to need help, like how long to cook an un-pounded airline chicken breast, just to end up talking to her about cooking. It was one of those passions that we shared.
Does that count as lying? I'm feeling a guilt trip coming on.
No, wait. It was just a burp.
Sorry you had a hard day on Wednesday. I hope your week has gotten better! Love ya and I am always here if you need anything
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Yay! Welcome to blogging! I am so glad you started! How have you been. Guess what I finally got hooked on, the Twilight series! I've meaning to tell you that since you recommended it to me on my last visit. I finally got around to reading them this Jan, I loved them! Any other recommends?
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